Deceptive Fate

"All say love is selfless, love is kind, it is patient, it is calm ... it makes us peaceful and benevolent. I say it's bullshit. For me it is an all-consuming abyss revolving around pain, grief, jealousy and expectations." This is what I am now.
I was never so cynical. But then He happened.
I never gravitated towards darkness but now I stood with no light inside and not a sliver around. He drilled into my life as a plough truck and eroded my whole existence.
He was a black hole ... I knew I was headed towards it but there absolutely nothing I could do to stop myself from being sucked into it.
"Something doesn't just happen because it just had to happen... it happens because you led to it," he said standing tall in front of me not a least bit distressed at the site of tears rolling down my eyes. That was the last anyone saw me cry.
For revenge he shattered my heart into pieces which were impossible to reassemble. He walked away when I most needed him to stay.
He has found me again..... Or maybe not. Now it's me who has nothing to lose.... Not me, not my soul and definitely NOT my mind. He loved me because I was Hope but now he won't as now I am Anguish. Yet like a moth to flame he is still onto me not knowing he can never find me again as I have found ME.
My name is Fate Daniels and this is my story.