Dear diary
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Last published Fri, Apr 6, 2018
Hello, I'm Benjamin!
I'm 15 and transgender. I am dealing with mental illnesses and the 'joys' of being a teenager and needs help coping my emotions. My phycologist told me to write down my thoughts and stuff so here I am.
P.s this diary may mention suicude, bxb love, self-harm, mental illnesses including anxiety and depression and bullying by family members.
Don't read if this trigger or make you uncomfortable in any way. Like I mentioned above this just a way to let my thoughts out.
All the love// Louie
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