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Finding Lux

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'If you're walking through hell, keep going.' - Churchill

We are creatures of survival. We fight. And keep fighting.

Survival instinct is so strong that when you're drowning you don't inhale until the last moment. No matter how much you're freaking out,your body doesn't let you give up until your head feels like it's exploding. And then, peace comes.

The pain is gone, time stops and you let your body sink further and further away. There is no more fear, only peace. 

So why do we keep going? Why do we battle the reflex to inhale till the last minute, till we can't do it anymore? Why do we choose pain?

Lux doesn't know why anything happens anymore. A girl so filled with light and love, now the shadow of the person she used to be since the love of her life died. She constantly makes the choice to battle the reflex to give up and let pain go, but how much longer can she hold up? How much longer can she stop herself from inhaling?All Rights Reserved

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