Farewell, Angel

I'm writing this with tears in my eyes and an ache in my heart.

Waking up to the news that the world had lost one of the brightest stars tore me apart. Jonghyun's music had helped me through some of the toughest times of my life and to know that he's gone... It's surreal. I don't think it ever will feel real to me.

It's been hard to put my emotions into words and it's been hard to figure out how I feel. There's some moments where I forget that our Jonghyun is gone, and then I remember and fall apart all over again.

But, I don't want to just be sad. I want to celebrate his life, too. But it's hard right now. I think it always will be hard, but one day I will wake up and everything will feel a little better. One day at a time, I know it will feel better.

Shawols, stay strong. We will get through this together. Jonghyun would want us to smile, to laugh, to enjoy life. And we need to do that, for him.

I wrote this poem in the hope that maybe it will help many of you as it helped me.