what true happiness means
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Last published Sat, Jun 13, 2020
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this story talks about suicide, depression, anxiety, family issues and more.
since the day she lost her best friend, Esme has never been the same. she changed to a person she never wanted to be. days passed and she thought that she was a goner. until she met them. the moment they came to her life, she was once again changing. this time to the better. her life seems to have brightened up. she's been looking forward again. smiling and laughing and feeling joy. until, everything had to be taken away from her again. this time, she can't fight it back. she can't do anything to keep them. once again, making her lose everything.
about heartbreaks, friendship, and losses.
"i don't wanna leave them. i don't want them to leave me. especially that. anything but that."
19/2/2018.
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