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My Diary

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My psychiatrist told me I needed to get my feelings out even if it's just through writing, so here it is. . .  Enjoy. . .All Rights Reserved

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Suicidal Ideation『Depressed Todoroki』 by __startover

(This work is abandoned, there was supposed to be one last additional chapter, however it will not be finished.) ❝ᴘᴇᴏᴘʟᴇ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ᴀ ʟᴏᴛ ᴛᴏ ꜱᴀʏ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ʟɪᴠᴇꜱ ᴛʜᴇʏ'ᴠᴇ ɴᴇᴠᴇʀ ʟɪᴠᴇᴅ❞ ❥❀↝ ᴅᴇꜱᴄʀɪᴘᴛɪᴏɴ: When the one thing you craved most was death, everything you once enjoyed seemed like nothing more than a burden. Shouto might be good at hiding things. His feelings, scars, bruises. But when someone starts to notice, what'll he do? How will he convince them to turn the other way, as he has to many other people? Will they figure it out? Or will Shouto continue to hang on to the edge of pain, until he loses his grip and meets his demise? ❥❀↝ ᴡᴀʀɴɪɴɢꜱ: -Abuse -Self-harm -Blood -Cursing -Suicide Attempt ❥❀↝ ꜱʜɪᴘꜱ: -Erasermic ❥❀↝ ᴅɪꜱᴄʟᴀɪᴍᴇʀ: Please read with your own health in mind! I would absolutely hate for any of you to be affected by this. I apologize if I write anything incorrectly or offend you. Please correct me and help me understand so I can do better next time! All characters and art are from the anime/manga and therefore belong to Kōhei Horikoshi. Under no circumstances do I own anything other than the plot! ❥❀↝ ɪɴꜰᴏʀᴍᴀᴛɪᴏɴ: Update schedule: None Started: May 19th, 2021 Finished: Discontinued - February 14, 2023 #1 in class1-a stories (07/19/21) #2 in dadzawa (08/04/21) #18 in todoroki (09/05/21) #1 in erasermic (11/24/21) #2 in hurtcomfort (02/11/22)

Insane- A villain that can change (villain Deku/Dadzawa [BNHA] by hi_imtired

(I do not own the cover picture or MHA/BNHA or most the characters in this story, I just own the plot and writing) (This story includes triggers, self harm, suicide and symptoms of psychosis) After my idol shut down the only thing I've lived for, I didn't see much of a point in living anymore. I wondered, why a quirkless bastard like me made it this far. But while I watched the blood trickle down my wrist, I thought, it isn't my fault I was born quirkless. Why should I be the one to suffer? And I decided, if I can't be a hero, I'll be a villain. I'll be a villain that can defeat people with a powerless fist. I'll defeat the people who doubted me. A story full of all his ups and downs, the hero he meets that changes his perspective on perusing the role of a villain, and helps him get through his mental illness.

Love always, Jessica by thebewitchedsimp

This is all I didn't say but wrote down in my journal/notebook. I wish I could have said this to you, Miguel, but I was too scared. I was scared you'd leave, and well... I lost you somehow anyways... I love you.

Bakugo's 5 day deal by ReallyTiredLol

I'm honestly ashamed of this book. I wrote it some time ago and it just has so many things wrong in it and is overall cringe. I am planning to write a different and better version of this in the near future. And hey, maybe you should follow me to see when it comes out ;) !!!STRONG SUICIDE TRIGGER WARNING!!! Midoriya was walking home at around 11pm, after picking up some groceries for his mom. He sighed, knowing he would have to wake up early for school tomorrow. He walked on the small bridge, looking at the bright, full moon. It was a beautiful night. He turned his head facing forward, his eyes locking on the body in front of him. "K-Kacchan?" The ash-blonde whipped his head to where the shorter boy stood, piercing red eyes meeting soft dark green ones. There he was. The loud, brash, cocky Katsuki Bakugo, sitting on the concrete wall of the bridge, with his shoes off and wallet out, ready to jump off and end his life at any moment. . . "You know what, lets make a deal."

One Thousand Tears by Lauryn_Love

I've tried to release this pain in so many different ways; But writing about you seems to be one of my faves. I don't understand how I find closure When I know it only lasts until the poem is over. Somehow it feels like some sort of imaginary relief to my reality. As if, the pain I feel only exists until the words are free. I know how crazy it may seem Because the heartbreak will always be there; And I will never un-feel what you've done to me.

Numb ---- Suicidal Todoroki x Bakugo----[BOOK 1] by wasteofspace4150

"You know, you weren't supposed to see them." He dropped my arm. "Is that supposed to make me feel better?" He grabbed my other arm, exposing those cuts as well. Bloody bandages fell to the ground and his expression changed. "Is this supposed to make me feel better?!?!?!" He held both my arms in front of me. I could feel his hands shaking. I could hear his voice breaking. He was yelling, but I knew it was a facade. He wasn't angry. He was worried. He was sad. He just doesn't know how to express anything else. "It's fine. Don't worry. I'm okay." He dropped my arms and stepped back a bit, looking down for a few seconds. He yelled in frustration, pushing me to the ground suddenly. I avoided eye contact. "In what world?! What part of your fucked up mind is telling you that this is okay?!?! Because let me fucking tell you right now, if you ever fucking do this to yourself again I swear...." He punched the wall and yelled in frustration, taking a deep breath to calm himself. He paused for a few seconds before speaking again. "Get up." He held out his hand and I took it, standing up shakily. He grabbed my arms again, staring at them sadly. "Again? Why would you hide them again? Why this again?" He pled desperately. "You two." A different voice from across the hallway said, making us both jump a bit. Aizawa walked over to us, looking down at my cuts with slightly widened eyes, then back up at me with a concerned expression. "I need to talk to both of you."

Finding Me (Todoroki x Reader) by Fandom_Princess12

"...You can't go through life on your own, just like a hero can't always save the day on their own. Sometimes, they need a bit of help from their friends..." I held out my hand again, but this time, I was more determined than before. More certain of what I was after. "So what do ya say, Todoroki," I said, "Do you wanna be friends?" ~~~~~~~~ You were a quirkless child with an impossible dream of becoming a hero. One day, your dream is given hope in the form of your very own Quirk. Now, attending UA High School in the Hero Course, you're on the road towards fulfilling your dream. However, surprising encounters and unimaginable trials are thrust into your life, and you will have to rely on the strength of your friends, and your own sheer will, to succeed. But one particular icy-hot bastard isn't so easy when it comes to your friendship. Will you melt the cold cage around his heart, or will you be burnt by his flames of hatred and resentment. This is your journey about becoming a hero, and finding yourself... DISCLAIMER: BHNA - belongs to Kōhei Horikoshi Cover art - belongs to F.P.12 (me) #1 in #todorokixreader (04/05/2020) #1 in #myheroacademia (20/05/2020-22/05/2020) #1 in #todoroki (22/05/2020-04/06/2020)

Only Till Forever (Book 1 in the Forever Duet) by t_c_writes

Numbness is all I've ever felt. Do I have feelings? Of course I do. but I'm numb I'm lost I'm broken I'm drifting away I'm half alive I'm drowning in numbness always have and I probably always will. That was until I met him. Who knew one man could take my gray and rainy And turn it into a Burst of color. I've only ever counted myself lucky to make it as far as I have Now the thought of forever with him is a constant But forever doesn't actually last forever Does it?

Feel ---- Suicidal Todoroki x Bakugo ---- [BOOK 2] by wasteofspace4150

***READ 'NUMB' FIRST (ON MY PROFILE)*** Damn it Todoroki What the fuck did you do? Why the fuck did you do this to me? Why the fuck didn't you come back? You knew I never meant to hurt you I know You know that And yet You haven't come back It's been nearly a week I can't I can't handle this My intentions at the start were to help you And then part ways with you To focus on my career But I got attached And now I never want you to leave "I knew this would happen." I muttered angrily, grunting in pain as I kept punching. "I knew as soon as you got better." My eyes teared up a bit, but I convinced myself it was anger. "You wouldn't need me anymore." I said through grinding teeth. "And now you don't need me anymore." I hit it again, and a sharp, burning pain shot up my arm. I stumbled back and yelled in pain. I sat on the ground and stared at the floor, crying and grinding my teeth. You always hated when I'd push myself too much And even after everything No matter how hard I try I'm still a failure I always fail in the end I always fall short It's never enough Nothing I ever do Is enough to come out on top It used to be easy I was just naturally good Comfortable at the top And now I'm struggling just to stay in the running I stood up and walked to the locker room, slamming the door open and closed. I stood in front of the mirror with my hands on both sides of the sink, staring at my reflection. I was a mess. My eyes were red from my tears and my expression was exhausted and distressed. My face was tear-stained and I was light headed. Just completely out of it. I had bags under my eyes from stress filled days and sleepless nights, an obvious lack of rest. No wonder Aizawa confronted me I look like hell I feel like hell Fuck This is hell

Trauma Ruined My LIfe (The Real-Life Journal Of An Abuser) by TenTillDeath

It was October 2023, and my now-ex-fiance had moved out of our trailer for good. I decided to end our relationship and thought I had emotionally moved on from them. I was wrong-dead wrong. What followed them moving out was something I could not have ever thought to experience. I began to experience extreme mood swings, controlling behavior, self-esteem issues, and a new-found addiction to alcohol. This was just the tip of the iceberg, as I was constantly flirting with suicide on a daily basis. I could not begin to even tell you about how I went through an emo phase, a "man hoe" phase, and multiple other phases as well due to my deteriorating mental health. I began to document my everyday life after our split through two separate journals over a twelve-month span. This is the true tale of how a breakup brought me to the realization that I was an abuser and that I became the same monster that I swore not to become as a kid. This is how trauma ruined my life, and how it will ruin yours too.

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Suicidal Ideation『Depressed Todoroki』 cover

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Love always, Jessica cover

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One Thousand Tears cover

Numb ---- Suicidal Todoroki x Bakugo----[BOOK 1] cover

Finding Me (Todoroki x Reader) cover

Only Till Forever (Book 1 in the Forever Duet) cover

Feel ---- Suicidal Todoroki x Bakugo ---- [BOOK 2] cover

Trauma Ruined My LIfe (The Real-Life Journal Of An Abuser) cover

Suicidal Ideation『Depressed Todoroki』

(This work is abandoned, there was supposed to be one last additional chapter, however it will not be finished.) ❝ᴘᴇᴏᴘʟᴇ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ᴀ ʟᴏᴛ ᴛᴏ ꜱᴀʏ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ʟɪᴠᴇꜱ ᴛʜᴇʏ'ᴠᴇ ɴᴇᴠᴇʀ ʟɪᴠᴇᴅ❞ ❥❀↝ ᴅᴇꜱᴄʀɪᴘᴛɪᴏɴ: When the one thing you craved most was death, everything you once enjoyed seemed like nothing more than a burden. Shouto might be good at hiding things. His feelings, scars, bruises. But when someone starts to notice, what'll he do? How will he convince them to turn the other way, as he has to many other people? Will they figure it out? Or will Shouto continue to hang on to the edge of pain, until he loses his grip and meets his demise? ❥❀↝ ᴡᴀʀɴɪɴɢꜱ: -Abuse -Self-harm -Blood -Cursing -Suicide Attempt ❥❀↝ ꜱʜɪᴘꜱ: -Erasermic ❥❀↝ ᴅɪꜱᴄʟᴀɪᴍᴇʀ: Please read with your own health in mind! I would absolutely hate for any of you to be affected by this. I apologize if I write anything incorrectly or offend you. Please correct me and help me understand so I can do better next time! All characters and art are from the anime/manga and therefore belong to Kōhei Horikoshi. Under no circumstances do I own anything other than the plot! ❥❀↝ ɪɴꜰᴏʀᴍᴀᴛɪᴏɴ: Update schedule: None Started: May 19th, 2021 Finished: Discontinued - February 14, 2023 #1 in class1-a stories (07/19/21) #2 in dadzawa (08/04/21) #18 in todoroki (09/05/21) #1 in erasermic (11/24/21) #2 in hurtcomfort (02/11/22)