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MY NEW LIFE [LIFE EXPERIENCE]
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I WAS ONCE A DRUNKARD AND GANGLEADER.I EVEN KILLED MY WIFE COS I GOT A BAD TEMPER.NOT ONLY THAT IM A SERIAL RAPIST AND FIGHT CHAMPION.IVE VISITED JAIL SINCE I WAS 13 FOR RAPE.THE JUDGE AND PRIEST CALLED ME CONDEMNED. OF COS I'LL GO TO HELL.MY FAMILY----WELL I RAPED MY MOTHER AT 13---------------DO YOU THINK I CAN CHANGE?
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