I Rather Choose Death
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Last published Fri, Aug 27, 2021
What do you do when you're living a lie ? When everybody say "Girl, you have it all and you're living a women's dream." all because you're so good at hiding the hurt and pain you go through every day and night. What do you do when you have to put a mask over your true beauty before you leave the house every morning? When you're just so over this life that you have to fake a smile so it won't show. Pretending that you have the perfect man but behind close doors he is so imperfect. What do you do when love locks you in a cage and you feel like there's no way out ? When your so stripped from your identity that when you look in the mirror you can't recognize your reflection ? When you had so much self love and it all get stripped away because the man you're in love with verbally abuses you. When you know the situation you're in is only going to put you in the ground but you're just so afraid to leave. Tell me....What do you do with your life when you rather choose death ?
~Layla Williams
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