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I Rather Choose Death

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What do you do when you're living a lie ? When everybody say "Girl, you have it all and you're living a women's dream." all because you're so good at hiding the hurt and pain you go through every day and night. What do you do when you have to put a mask over your true beauty before you leave the house every morning? When you're just so over this life that you have to fake a smile so it won't show. Pretending that you have the perfect man but behind close doors he is so imperfect. What do you do when love locks you in a cage and you feel like there's no way out ? When your so stripped from your identity that when you look in the mirror you can't recognize your reflection ? When you had so much self love and it all get stripped away because the man you're in love with verbally abuses you. When you know the situation you're in is only going to put you in the ground but you're just so afraid to leave. Tell me....What do you do with your life when you rather choose death ? 

      ~Layla WilliamsAll Rights Reserved

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Never Ending by Angeldusingize

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These Are My Confessions by Pharaohs_Love

These are my confessions to everything that I've done. When you read this I don't want you to look at me differently. I don't want your pity or any type of sympathy. See I knew what I signed up for when I entered the game. I choose this lifestyle and at one time I thought it was the best choice for me. I had access to any and everything. Don't be fooled though there is always a dark side. Nobody ever tells you about the price you have to pay when you are in my position. Everybody sees the good but, not the bad. The days you have to spend trying to cover your face with makeup. The different people you meet every night just to survive. The things you would go through just to get someone's attention. I guess you could say I did it for love. Only if you believe in that type of stuff. I would like to call my experience a high. It was pure ecstasy at first. The charming smile, expensive clothes, fancy dinners, nice vacations. Then it turns into a living hell you can't escape from. That's when people start showing their true colors. When lights go off there is a whole different side to a person. You could literally be sleeping next to the devil himself. 'Let's do this dirty laundry'

The Daily Life of Ana James by joiningthedots

I wish to be a butterfly. Free to do whatever I want. To fly where I wish. But I can't. I can't do this because of something that happened about three years a go. Someone that I trusted betrayed me. Now I find it hard to trust people- to even trust myself. It's hard because now trust, to me, is linked to bad experiences But what if, you could trust someone and not regret it? What if, someone made your life better? Not necessarily because of the words they said, or the actions they did- but because of their presence- Their very presence was enough to make you feel happier.

Can't Buy Me Love by srscrapper

"Breathing. Something I've always known how to do, yet sometimes it seems impossible. I sat in the passenger seat of a red convertible Mustang. The car belonged to my... would you call him my owner? I sat with my knees pulled up to my chest, I put my hand on the window of the car, wiping away some of the fog. My father and the guy who had just bought me, shook hands, finalizing the arrangement, as they stood on our front porch... or could you even call it that? The rain came down making it hard to see. Yes, breathing. Everyone knows how to do it, but it's normal for someone to forget how to, right? Right now, I felt as if my lungs had been ripped from my chest... or was that just my heart? My buyer ran from the porch, covering his head with his jacket. He stepped into his Mustang, and pulled it into reverse. Then with a simple movement, he turned the vehicle around and headed down the drive. I watched as my whole world slipped away." -Can't Buy Me Love *************************************** They were best friends, he was rich, she lived in a trailer. He moved away when she was 13 and then he moves back when she's 17. All her dad ever cared about was money, so for most of her life her dad had told her he was gonna sell her to a rich man, as soon as she was 18. But she wants nothing more than to be with her childhood love. Will he save her from her fate or will she get sold off to some loaded obnoxious stranger? She has secrets, he has secrets, a shadow lurks in the darkness watching her... can love even grow from that? ****** *Some mature content: Abuse and mature language*

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Never Ending

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