My story up until now, as I remember it. Trigger warnings include: molestation/rape, suicide/self-harm, drugs/alcohol. More will be added accordingly Everything above this was written in 2019, same with the first 9 parts. I want to readdress some things and possibly retell, but I didn't want to change those first 9 parts (aside from basic editorial things like fixing up grammar and spelling) I kept it because 19 and 20 year old me worked pretty hard on that, cringey as it may be. Further thoughts to be stated in part 10.