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Hi. 

I'm just some mentally unstable teen (sorry for sounding emo).

I'm not really doing this for the enjoyment of others, but for myself. Almost like a diary I guess? But not as private.

I know. I'm posting this online for everyone to see, but although I am doing this for myself, I hope it kind of helps people who are going through similar issues as me so they know that they're not alone. 

So maybe this is for others? I don't even know anymore. 

But yeah.

Interpret things how you want. I don't really care. Just correct me if I ever get my spelling or facts wrong. 

Like I'm going to say many times in this "story": I'm mentally unstable 

Do you think I have time to check my facts?

(The art I post on here probably won't be mine before you accuse me of theft. I you know the artists that made it, please tell cause I don't want to be thAt kid)All Rights Reserved

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