A normal day

Hey my name is jessie, I am 15 years old, I have 2 best friends but not that many friends, I get bullied almost every day but it makes me who I am; so im glad about that, But the torturing thing in my life is my father her abuses me... Thats the main thing that makes me so suicidal and desperate, I can't ever tell my best friend, But she knows somethings wrong, however she must never know it would destroy her and I would be killed if he knew I told her. My life is the same every day, im just counting down the days until im 16; because I can leave home and live with my best friends. the are the best but I feel like I cant take one more day of my life... it's just far too much for me to handle, I miss my mother so much