This is a short, couple part introduction to a part of my past, it has my interpretation of how it felt like. Of course the description won't apply to everyone, but just for some food for thought next time you're with friends. For those of you who have a group of friends, understand one friend, whether you know it or not, always stands outside to protect against the harsh conditions, for the sake of everyone else. I am one of them, according to my own feeling at least, and I will tell you what my view left me watching.