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His Ruination

shatteringsoul14

Membaca 800
Vote 55
Bab 7
Durasi 49m

Membaca 800
Vote 55
Bab 7
Durasi 49m

shatteringsoul14

Dewasa

[previously titled 'Aurelian'] 

Am I even real? 

Chest weighing heavy,
Limbs going numb
There's a pressure in my head
I wonder if I even exist.

Tears push against my eyes.
Heart empty.
Ringing in my ears.

I'm flesh and bone.

So far removed,
The tragedies surrounding me.

Guilt.
For the sadness, I've never felt.

Hopelessness.
Dreams once lost.

Death.
I beg you to take me.

Death. 
I fear you would take me.

A thousand apologies 
To a younger me
Oh, how disappointed 
You would be. 
- Yusha Adam

in which a boy suffers silently.

[Book 1 in the Broken Boys Club]
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excuse the sporadic updates

P.S. This is a book about a Muslim boy, however it does Not mean it is only for Muslim viewers. The characters in this book are Not the perfect depiction of Islam. ISLAM IS GOOD AND IT ENCOURAGES GOOD, ANY FAULTS IS BECAUSE WE AS HUMANS MAKE MISTAKES

Warning: this book contains dark themes such as depression, self harm, total isolation and abuse.



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