Let it Go?

"Come one Cath! Just let it go," he picked up my hand holding it to his chest as he finished his statement, "It won't happen again I promise. As long as you're with me, nothing will touch you." Arden grinned at me. I jerked away. His smile faded. "But that's just it. I like the pain I don't want it to go. It's the one thing that keeps me tied down. The only thing that lets me know I have something to live for. That I have to survive. And the sad thing is I don't want to." - Maybe Cath is just over reacting. Maybe she isn't. Can she fix what she caused or let it pick at her until there's nothing left? Cath has jumped into a deeper puddle than she thought she was going to. She is constantly fighting to keep her head above water. But how long until she completely snaps how long can she fight the pain, the abuse, the threat, the loss and even what she's gained?