The way to say life.

An average teenage girl, Nikita (Me) discovers that life isn't always a ball and in some point of your existence you are going to get messed up in some bazar and sort of unhealthy way. I thought I was the only teen with problems. The day when I met my best friend Nicky, every aspect of my life has changed. I fondly made the wrong decisions and lost the only person who could comfort me with believable lies. The lies that I took as the truth. Nicky wanted me to be a light in a world of darkness, because she knew that I do not belong in this world. ''Love should cure everything, right?" I would question myself before I go to sleep.
And Nicky was right. EVERY little damn thing had a reason. And at this moment I snapped out of my thoughts.
And then he came in my life. The guy who made me teach myself to stay strong and in control, because of the way he treated me and made me feel like a different person. You must think why I'm talking as if he was bad to me. He made me happy for the first time in a long time and that was good at a moment. Surely I had to snap out of my fantasy of romance and look into all the lies he told me. All the ''I love you's", "You mean everything to me", "I would die for you". Surely I almost did die for him. Just for the simple emotion and word love. The word I never had to say, because nobody wanted to hear the needs I have. The simple need I had was just a little love...