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Suicidal : How Do I Explain This Feeling?
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  • Reads 157
  • Votes 4
  • Parts 13
  • Time 28m
Ongoing, First published Jan 14, 2018
Hello boys and girls! That's right. Don't close this... or do whatever your instinct is telling you to do. It's me, the author of this book. No lies, no hidden agendas. And this time absolutely no more hiding. Get a snack. Settle in. 'Cause I'm about to tell you the story of my life. More specifically why my life was ruined. The rules here are pretty simple. There are only three. Rule number one: you read. Number two: you understand. Number three: you pass it on. Hopefully, neither of these will be easy. It's not supposed to be easy, or I would have just told you what's going on with my life before all this. When you're done reading, close the book, and pass them on to the next person.

Oh, and the book is of mostly for those certain people who made my life miserable meaning all of them who are involved. I can't force you to read this, but if you'd like a little more insight, maybe you should. Or, you know, just throw the book away and I'll never know. Or will I? You see, in case you're tempted to break the rules, understand I did make a copy of this book, and I left it to a trusted individual who, if this book doesn't make it through all of you, will release those copies in a very public manner. This was not a spur of the moment decision. Do not take me for granted. Not again.
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