Lament

la·ment
ləˈment/
noun
a passionate expression of grief or sorrow.
"his mother's night-long laments for his father"
synonyms: wail, wailing, lamentation, moan, moaning, weeping, crying, sob, sobbing, keening; jeremiad; complaint
"the widow's laments"

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After Elle Seriya commits suicide, she thinks she goes nowhere after this. But, out of millions, billions, trillions of people, she gets picked to be placed back on earth. Her. She was chosen to protect people from self-harm. Her. But out of many other people who obviously deserves it, she was picked.

Once Elle goes to earth, she gets to visit her hometown every once in a while. And she thinks to herself, was it really worth it?