Please.. Someone, save me

"I thought she was saving me. She always brought me gifts and tried to make a bad situation better. I honestly believed in her. So tell me, why?! Why did she do this?! Why act like that and be so kind to me only for me to find out she never meant ANY of it?!! It was all a joke! A horrible, cruel joke to get my hopes up only to crush them and completely break me!....
why? what did i do to deserve this? what's so wrong with me that i deserve being the family punching bag? that i deserved to have this twisted joke played on me?..."