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Last published Mon, Feb 19, 2018
image.
what is an image.
is it the person that you pride yourself in being?
or is it the person that you see yourself being?
society infers that girls must be skinny and popular in order to be considered 'good enough'
sometimes, some of us will do anything to be good enough.
it was in this dark time called highschool, that I met my best friend.
Ana.
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my name is abby sawyer...
and Im anorexic.
when I was in 8th grade, I was 5 foot 4 inches tall and I weighed 246 pounds. I was called fat and ugly by at least 10 people daily.
thats when i met ana. (anorexia) she told me that the only way for me to be skinny enough for people to stop calling me names, would be for me to stop eating entirely.
im now a senior in highschool. i am 4 foot 7 inches and i weigh in at somewhere around 60 pounds. i consume 200-400 calories a day and I hate my appearance now more than ever. i look like a monster. my bones stick out, you can see each of my indivisual ribs, i have bruises all over my body, and i cannot leave the safety of a hospital that is supposedly ' helping me work through my problems' but it wont help. Ana wont stop.
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