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This Is How You Lose Yourself

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80s dark darkcomedy doomed findingyourself grief humor losingyourself love mentaldisorder novel ongoing retro romance sad teen teenfiction tragicomedy wattys2018 youngadult

"Why are you crying?" He asks in concern because of my puffy red eye and the toll this chain reaction had on me.

"I poked my eye." I make a move to wipe it with my sleeve. He smiles. I got my answers. I'm not happy. I don't know what I was expecting. I probably shouldn't have been so pushy.

I don't know what to think about Sensitive Quinn. I do know that I'm going to help him. I'll do the world a favor; get his dad in jail, and live happily ever after with Quinn, alive. Did I just fantasize about living happily ever after with Quinn? I was getting ahead of myself. I was no psychologist or therapist. There could be something wrong with Quinn, mentally.

This was too stressful. Why did I put myself in this situation? Why couldn't I be home, like a normal person, studying, discussing the newest episode of Full House with Sadie because I don't have a television, or listening to the radio because I did have one of those?

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Ettie Young's personal guide to losing yourself; in which a girl who can't keep her mouth shut, tries to stop her best friend's brother from ending his life. Not to mention that crush she has on him. 
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