Before Depression
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Last published Sun, Jun 10, 2018
Hello. My name is Dustin. And this is my confusing life. I don't know what's wrong with me, but I know that I feel different. Different to others. Different to who I was. Different to all the 'sicknesses' that have my symptoms. I'm scared.
Dustin gets bullied. He's hurt, But deep inside. He doesn't know what he's feeling. -He doesn't know he's hurting, all he knows is he's scared, and he has too many emotions. He doesn't feel bad. He feels as normal as ever. But there's something else. He's just scared. Scared. He feels different to how everyone else looks. He feels too real to be, well, real.
A/N: This book is inspired by events from my life. Please, if you are bullied or made fun of or, if you feel sad, please feel free to message me. We can talk. I'm always open.
This may be a slightly triggering story. If you feel you can't handle bullying, depression, etc. Don't read this. If you feel you can't handle people making fun of others, of depression, race, sexuality, etc. Please Don't Read this. I don't think any of this personally, it's not my opinion, but it is part of the story.
It stings.
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