The End OF Me
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Last published Sat, Jan 27, 2018
This is me saying goodbye. Nothing else and most definitely nothing more.
I won't say that I'm surprised that things have come to this. I always knew that I was going to end up killing myself eventually.
So for the next two months I'll right on here everyday until I decide it's time to go.
And just a heads up for anyone who's going to try and "save me" don't bother... because I've already made up my mind.
*Read at your own risk
*In no way, shape, or form am I trying to promote suicide. I'm simply just writing about how I really feel.
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