.: I Wish, I Wish, I Wish ~:||:~ Eddie Kaspbrak/Richie Tozier :.

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Love is so hard when the only love you feel is the kind that you don't want.

Of course he loves his mother, doesn't he? She loves him, he knows that. But it's just so hard not to hate a person who makes you hate yourself.

Of course he loves his father. But it's just so hard to miss someone you never really knew.

It's hard to miss someone whose death is the reason your mother makes you hate yourself.

'You don't want to end up like your father, do you, dear?'

'Of course not. But will I really end up like him? You can't catch cancer, Ma.'

'Of course you can, Eddie. You can catch anything if you arent careful enough. Promise me you'll always be careful.'

'Okay, Ma. I promise.'

But Richie Tozier turned his life upside down. Eddie isn't sure he likes it. The freedom, the excitement, the wind in his hair, that's all nice. But the other feeling, the warm one that feels like his heart is going to explode, the one that only happens when he's around.

Eddie Kaspbrak is afraid of that feeling, and it is the very feeling he gets when Richie Tozier is standing too close to him.

! WARNING ! This story includes mentions of depression, anxiety, thoughts of self - harm, explicit scenes and homosexual interactions. If you are not comfortable with these, or uncomfortable with subjects that may relate, by clicking on the 'Begin Reading' you are agreeing to the terms that have been set and the author is not responsible for any effects it may have on your mind or body. ! WARNING !