To Be
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Death could be so unpredictable, am I right? You see I never really pictured how I'll die. My life was okay, or as okay as okay could be for me. Constantly haunted from my past. Always pretending. Except with Adrian. My Adrian. With him I'm happy.
But then everything changed.
And now I'm dying, slow and painful.
Now, what led to all this? I'll tell you only if you're daring enough to read my story.
Well, are you?
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