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To Be

AlexiaRichardson

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Reads 8,368
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Parts 54
Time 7h 3m

AlexiaRichardson

army death highschool life mentalillness romance selfharm suicide teenfiction tragedy war wattys2021 wattys2022 yafiction younglove

Death could be so unpredictable,  am I right? You see I never really pictured how I'll die. My life was okay, or as okay as okay could be for me. Haunted from my past. Always pretending. Except with Adrian. My Adrian. With him I can be happy. 
But then everything changed. 
And now I'm dying, slow and painful.

Now, what led to all this?  I'll tell you only if you're daring enough to read my story. 
Well, are you?

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