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Last published Tue, Jan 30, 2018
Most people write private journals. I'm trying something totally different. I am writing this, one hundred percent honestly, and publishing it. I feel that there isn't enough first hand stories from males under the age of 30 that have/are struggling and I know that we all feel alone in this. I promise we aren't. If my story helps you with any sort of problems you are having please tell me so I know that this was worth my time. And consider writing your own, there is never too many life stories out there. Yours might save a life.
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