Dear Janey
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A mental patient searching for the Impossible.
" I don't wanna stop pretending. If I do, everything will be more terrible than it is now. Why can't I just pretend? I can pretend Dad doesn't wanna hurt me and I didn't do what I did to you and Mom isn't scared of me. Why can't I just pretend? That way maybe I can be happy and everyone will forget what I did and maybe I will too."
started May 2014 - been on various hiatuses - deleted, currently editing -
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