I Should of Loved You

Darkness....right now and for most of my life that is all i have seen, even while i was young while my older sibilings were being sung to sleep softly by my mother or read a story by my father, i would be in my own room with no one beside me, silence being my only friend, in complete and utter darkness. That should have been a obvious sign of my family not wanting me, but i was only a child then and as i grew i started to get use it, how my family would treat me as if i was empty space, and go on vacation, while i sit in a empty house by myself. Later on in life my pack would also start to treat me the same, but i did not mind because they were my family, and pack and i should love them right. I did not know at that moment but i would later go on to regret those words so much...