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Last published Tue, Aug 20, 2019
Daniel Howell has spent his entire life alone. He was content with the eerie silence in his apartment. It was an understatement to say he was an introvert. Just the thought of stepping outside made his stomach queasy and his palms sweaty. He was completely fending for himself because of his lack of human interaction. His personality did protect him from being hurt by others but not even having one single friend was driving him past insanity. Dan decides one day to step outside of his comfort zone for the first time since he was six and finally builds up the courage to face the petrifying world. What'll happen when he meets his internet idol, AmazingPhil(Philip Lester)?
Warning: Smut, mentions of suicide and self harm, I'll put warnings at the top of each chapter if it contains anything that could be triggering!
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