You couldn't understand, even if you tried, the reason that she cries at night, the reason she tries to hide. Don't try to come close, she'll just push you away, there's something that you don't know, words she couldn't say. She tries with all her might, to be herself around her friends, but something doesn't feel right, a broken heart that could not mend. She pretends that she's strong, a tough outer shell, but there's always something wrong, she's trapped in her Hell. She wants to speak, to tell you all the truth, but she is way too weak, broken without any glue. Painfully shy; the bird that couldn't fly. Dying on the inside; a body without a mind. Maybe if you took the time, find the person she tries to be. Maybe if you looked inside, you'd realize she is me. //nin9:3//
A girl who has been called chubby her whole life. By everyone.
She wants to be a model; thinking it might make her pretty and people would stop calling her names and laughing at her for thinking she had a career in modeling.
So she applies to a modeling school. The best in town.
Her dream is to be a model.
Yet, she is brutally rejected when she applies which completely shatters her heart.
Her parents never supported her. So after she's rejected, instead of consoling her; they criticize her even more.
She never really had friends to begin with; and now that the news of being rejected from the modeling school spread, no one would even look at her in a friendly way.
She was mocked. She was bullied.
The words kept changing.
From chubby to fat.
From stupid to worthless
With the excessive amount of bullying, she fell into depression. Hard.
She stopped eating. Maybe it'll make the horrible words go away?