Sooner or Later.

"He's gone." Those words wrecked my world. The walls that I've spent so hard building up crashed by the use of two words. He was gone. I actually broke down. I laid in bed for days on end where I heard a knock on my door. It opened and I saw James standing there. He looked speechless. I sat up and motioned for him to sit next to me. He sat down and he wrapped his arms around me. "Shh Charlie it'll get better." He said stoking my cheeks. "Tell me James please tell me this is all some sick joke." I said looking up at his eyes. "I can't. I wish I could but I can't we can do this Charlie, we can get through it and I need you to remember that no matter what happens, you'll always have me." He said kissing the top of my head. Little did my best friend know that I would be dead by morning. I can't live, I need to die.