Testing My Feelings
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This is a story told by and about Andrew Neely, a 16 year old boy. The story is ever changing and evolving as it is still being written and worked on but, the basic plot follows Andrew and his struggle to come to terms and understand his feelings for his childhood friend, Connor Lear, while already confused and conflicted over his feelings for his classmate, Joshua Collins, who is also their school's varsity soccer captain.
This is my first real story I've ever attempted writing, considering the fact that I absolutely hate writing with a passion. Nonetheless, here I am writing a story for fun. The title is only temporary as I really haven't thought of a suitable title. Keep in mind that this is an ever changing and evolving story that I will constantly be changing, rewriting, and adding to. I've broken it down into "chapters" although I'm not sure if they really qualify as chapters. Feedback and constructive criticism are certainly welcome. It doesn't contain and real sexual content at all, at least for now, and contains like 6 swear words so I opted not to rate this as mature. Should these facts change in the future then I will change the rating.
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