If I Could Tell Him {A "Dear Evan Hansen" Fanfiction}

(This book takes place prior to the events of "Dear Evan Hansen". Spoilers ahead. Read at your own risk)
After several months of self-discovery, Connor Murphy is struggling with the crush he has on the awkward, Evan Hansen. With just starting pot and his family slowly crumbling, telling Evan his true feelings will be harder than anticipated.
"If I could tell him, tell him everything I see. If I could tell him, how he's everything to me. But we're a million worlds apart. And I don't know how I would even start. If I could tell him."

WARNING!!
Possible triggers ahead.