My Life

My life from my perspective is confusing, but some people say that I'm making myself confused and their reason is my decision making is horrible, which is true but most of my decisions have a purpose/reason that I don't want to tell or show. There are always pros and cons of making a decision, my pros are mostly just to decrease how I feel about it or how I react to it, but my cons, my cons are the ones that affect me the most because my cons are always in my head and the only way that I know is to tell or show it, but I cant cause it might affect them too and I don't want that so I just hide the pain from people.