A Guide to Hating Me

"Why?" you asked. "Because i'm me." I answered. A simple one, but the easiest one i had. "That isn't an answer" this confused me. How could I not? I've seen myself, I've heard myself talk, say so many stupid things I wish I hadn't, not say so many things I wish I had. There's every reason in the world to hate me and not a single reason not to. I don't, no, can't, understand how you don't see it. How was that not a proper answer? it's the truth, there's no way around it, sure, I can drag the answer out, if that's what you want. but it all leads back to the same thing. The reason I hate myself is because I'm me. Because I've heard myself say stupid things, because i haven't said things I wish I had, because i've been there when i did stupid things i regret, and when i regretted not doing something. I mean, of course i've been there. It's kinda hard to run away from yourself.

"What do you mean?" I paused, "Do you want a list?".

"I want to understand."