"Hey, I just wanted to tell you that I miss you. Face time me when you can. You know what fuck it. Mila I fucking love you and I always have. But I kept my feelings bottled up because I didn't want to make things weird between us. We've been best friends forever and I've always wanted to be more than that. But you probably have a boyfriend now, and we're really far from each other, a couple 2, 000 miles far away. So my feelings don't matter at this point, but I just want to see you." I clicked the stop button, and played the recording back , eager to see if this one came out better then the rest. But it didn't. And out of frustration I deleted it and stared at the 'read' popup on my messages with Mila, my bestest friend, and the only girl I've ever loved.