** and so, the legacy I leave behind when I shuffle off this mortal coil is that of a footnote in a brain leak episode. ah. mental. speaking of, I'd like to formally apologise as a now 22 year old woman for my extremely mentally unwell teenage self being the poster child for parasocial attachments and that manifesting itself into writing incessantly about actual people! if you ever do come back to this, Ethan, I beg of you not to read this girthy monstrosity on a stream or read it ever actually, but if you force my hand to gouge out my own eyes and ears then so be it. "some of these chapter titles are really funny" yeah man I've got jokes. I've HAD jokes. and on your podcast, I WAS the joke (in a lighthearted and funny way dw fuck you guys but also dw it's not serious fuck you). that aside, I'm eternally grateful to you and Sean - and don't click onto my account to see any content about him either or I will bring a snickers to a fight (I won't sorry that's really mean) - for being the reasons for a smile on my face that was pretty hard to come by, back then. thank you for being here for more people than you'll ever know, and giving us so much of your time. you are both very lovely and I'll always adore your content; keep it leaky fellas x ** Some imagines about the not-so-blue boy! (I wrote these in like 2017/2018 and havent added any since, so these are a little outdated in terms of references and stuff. it might say I've updated it recently, but that's purely to add necessary trigger warnings cuz at the time those werent really included. also, if Ethan EVER does a fanfiction video and sees these...no u didnt ✨😌✨) Book cover by: @lazzyleni - COMPLETED -
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