How I feel Journaling

This is about how I feel about everything going on in my life. I have been having so much anxiety and pain. So I kinda just want to let it all out and writing is mostly always the solution for me when I need to let something out. Because mostly I cant deal with not telling anyone about how I am feeling, because if I just keep inside of me and not let it out then I would start feeling more depressed and suicidal. And sooner or later it might be too much and I will probably kill myself. I might as well get my feelings out before its too late.