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***W A R N I N G***
-This may contain things readers may find disturbing or uncomfortable. It contains swearing and self-harm and other things so viewers discretion is advised-

Ida Mabel Jays was born into a normal family. Her father was a well-accomplished doctor her mother worked at the local library doing volunteer work and her older brother became one of her best friends...Before everything slowly began tearing at the seams...

Falling to pieces she shielded herself off from the world only letting one person in her small bubble. Her brother Kestin. Other than that her fake smiles and glazes over eyes created a mask that convinced people she was okay when on the inside she was on the edge of a cliff preparing to jump.

Until he came along...
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This story tackles the struggles with mental health, suicidal tendencies and family issues. It will hopefully remind people to keep their minds open and look out for the people who need help...even if they don't look like they need it.All Rights Reserved

abused alcholism anxiety badboy brokenfamily bullying death depression geekgirl hate love romance selfharm selfharmawareness suicidalthoughts suicide

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