In a world where boys and girls are desperate to lose their virginity before they get married, you exist, and yes, the older boy-next-door remembers exactly what you did before he left for college.
When you lose your virginity by a stranger then you think there will be no effect of that night on him but after that night he always thinks about only you. He has an urge to make you his children mother and after that night he always wears your bra strap as his armlet.