State of Mind
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Last published Sun, Mar 23, 2014
I don't have friends in school, nobody cares enough to look past my disorder. I don't have my parents anymore, they hated me so much that they left me. I have scars on my arms, and my head is constantly a jumbled mess. My name is Heather. And Amber. And Courtney. And Raven. And Carter. I have Multiple Personality Disorder. I am five people, yet I am one person. I'm Heather. I'm a screwed up mess. We all are. You know I can talk to them? We all see through my eyes, yet my body isn't always mine. They call me crazy, but they don't understand. Nobody does.
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