Numb
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Ongoing20m
Last published Mon, Jan 19, 2015
I was born with love and hope, born to feel in all senses, we both were. Together we achieved life skills in unison. One mind, two bodies, careless and free. We trusted in the future and trusted in positivity, and it took her life. Now it slowly consumes mine. A mask of fake personalities hide my insecurities as i lock everything i feel away. My body designed to carry only my burdens and eventually just like my mind it will give up. To love with a locked heart, an impossible task, but yet it may just be the solution. The solution to being numb.
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