Him

It would be at least futile, if not criminal, to try to condense into words the way I felt about him. It was so intense, so real, and so very deep; it ran deep into the core of my existence. Every time I caught a bittersweet glimpse of him, the world seemed to rearrange itself. I must admit that never in my life had I ever felt so strongly about anything.
It was utterly alien to me; not only the feeling, but also the unfortunate fact that we are of the same gender.
That, alongside numerous further complications.