A Diary of Me
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A compilation of the things floating around in my head that I never had the guts to say out loud.
The things that I fear will make people look at me differently or make them pity me, if they knew.
The deep internal turmoil that forever rages in my mind.
The person I'm realising that I was, am and am coming to be. The things that keep me up til 5am.
My deepest thoughts.
Please keep them safe.
I won't try to make this some elaborately put together tale of my life story. The words just flow out of me as I lay in bed in the middle of the night, needing to give my brain a release from all the thoughts crammed inside it.
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