We build our lives on the most unstable things; ice. All of us built our futures, our careers on ice, something that under pressure would crack. And for all of us, it cracked, and we fell through.
He thought he was ready. The world thought he was ready. But apparently, he wasn't ready.
NATHAN CHEN was set to win the gold medal at the 2018 Olympics, he had everything, the quads, the luck, the mental game. But at the Olympics, everything gave out. He was just an 18-year-old, with too much pressure on his shoulders.
KIERRA YU was a shot in the dark. She came out of nowhere, with the ability to randomly and spastically throw quads. She had the so-called "full package." She knew what she was there for, to win. Yet she got distracted and too involved, and in the end, it lead to her downfall.
VINCENT ZHOU was young and naive. He had never won, and going to the Olympics was honestly just for fun. He wished that he could be more, more talented, more skilled, more of everything, but he wasn't.
Three athletes from the United States of America, three destinies, three skaters that fell short. 2018 brought failure, in all sorts of aspects, from skating to their love life. But all three are waiting for their redemption skate, the skate where they win. But jealousy, lovers, and exes never mix, and some will rise, and others will drown.
Yet to move on they must all forget the past, learn to forgive, and give second chances. But to all of them they still question; Can you juggle a career and a relationship? And in a world full of secrets and lies, which one will rise, and which will fall?
TRIGGER WARNING. DO NOT READ IF YOU ARE SUICIDAL, DEPRESSED, ANOREXIC, OR THIS MAY TRIGGER YOU IN ANY WAY.
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Eijirou Kirishima is depressed. He doesn't know why, and he doesn't know how to stop it, but he doesn't want to be a burden on everyone else so he keeps it hidden. Like most people do. But it's getting to be too much and it's effecting his normal persona. He also has a crush on Katsuki Bakugou- and, would you look at that! Bakugou likes him back! Their relationship moves fast and Kirishima seems to forget his biggest secret.
And after that comes:
Therapy.
Hospital visits.
Doctors offices.
Worrying parents.
Worrying friends.
Worrying boyfriends.
And so the best thing that Kirishima can think of is to lie.. to get back the happiness that everyone used to feel around him. To destroy that weird awkward feeling of worry that he senses whenever he is around anyone.
He just hopes that maybe if he lies to others enough about what's really going on, then maybe he'll start convincing himself. That maybe, just maybe, the problems will go away.
WARNING! This story contains:
Smut
Self harm
Suicidal thoughts and actions
Depression
Anxiety
Panic attacks
If these topics trigger you, please do not read on!
Lastly, this story is very close to home for me. I know what I'm talking about with the feelings that Eijirou feels, and I know how these things work. I've been hesitant to post this story for a while because I was worried of what people would say about all of it. A good amount of this story is me telling some of my experiences with depression, self harm, anxiety, etc. through Kirishima.
All I ask of you as a reader is to please be kind in the comments. Honestly, as cheesy as it sounds, be kind to everyone. You really don't know what they are secretly going through.
(Please feel free to message me if you feel any of the negative things that I talk about in this book. I am not a professional, but I have gone through these things and may be able to give you some advice, or at least be there for you to talk to.)
Now, please enjoy this book.