Living means hurting. To prove that you're alive, you must cry, you must get hurt; you must feel the pain the world will bring. But why did you chose to live even though you're hurting? That's because life is still wonderful, right? Kahit maraming masasakit na pangyayari ang dumating, masarap pa rin mabuhay.
Gano'n din sa love, mag-s-stay ka kahit na masakit, kahit na niloloko ka lang niya nang paulit-ulit, kahit nagagalit na lahat ng taong nakapaligid sa'yo ng dahil sa katangahan mo; kahit na gabi-gabi ay dinadamdam mo ang sakit na dinudulot niya sa'yo, kakayanin mo. Wala eh, mahal mo kasi. Kahit napakaraming sakit ang naidudulot niya sa'yo, pipiliin mo pa rin na manatili sa tabi niya, aasa na sana ma-realize niya balang araw na ikaw lang ang mag-mamahal sa kan'ya nang sobra. Ang tanga, 'di ba? Wala eh, mahal mo kasi at kung tatanungin mo ako kung bakit ko piniling manatili? Sasagutin kita sa pamamagitan ng sampung dahilan...
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4.2.18
Ella is falling apart trying to live a "perfect" high school life. Then she meets Ren, who can see past her scars. Suddenly perfection isn't her only option.
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Ella Volkov is a gifted music student, but she's depressed and starting to crack under the pressure of high school. Her overbearing father won't even let her choose what instrument she plays. Then she finds herself alone at a party with Ren, her best friend's crush. She'd always thought he was rude, but after that night he's all Ella can think about. Now she's trapped. If Ella dates Ren, it will ruin her friendship with Jenny. But if she stays true to Jenny, she's losing the one person who can see past her scars. It's up to Ella to decide if she will forge her own path, or stay in the "perfect" box designed for her...
Content and/or Trigger Warning: depression, anxiety, self-harm, violence, sexual assault.
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