I Hate you (in the works)
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Ongoing6m
Last published Tue, Dec 27, 2016
I wouldn't say I'm be trying to be poetic, when I say hate is such a strong word. But the backlash that comes with is more harmful. It's the core energy since, Well I don't even know anymore I lost track. I guess I'm not totally useless since I'm a outlet. I'm not gonna go down the tunnel of the wimpy 'Why do they hate me?'; I don't need the answer. I wonder how others who are abused and bullied feel. I wonder if they have the same insight because my belief is that life has many spectrums and my life tilts in the hate bucket. This was usually my perspective because i tried to kid myself, that I was at least better in some spectrum of my attackers. Well that was before the day that shines a light better than my others.
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