I Wish I Could
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After the death of her best friend Autumn sinks further into the darkness, until she does what he did. Or at least she tried.
Waking up in a hospital, saved from some strangerdoesnt have it's perks. That is until a random guy that most don't know much about starts to stand up for her.
Confused as to why he's 'protecting' her, she confrunts him. What started out as a simple kind jesture quickly turns into a blooming friendship and maybe even romance.
Everything was going well in Autumn's life until his secret was revield and her world starts to crash all over again.
Will Autumn be stromg enough to withstand the storm? Will she be able to stay strong? Or will she tumble down again, and lose the battle once and for all?
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I saw all the signs.
But I did nothing.
I never thought it would come to this.
I wish I would've tryed to help him,
I wish I never took him forgranted,
I wish I could go back in time,
And make this all right,
But I can't.
It's too late,
He's gone forever,
I could've helped,
And told him what he ment to me.
That's why I'm standing here now. Infront of his grave in the pouring rain telling him how much he ment to me, and how much I loved him. I loved how he loved nature and books. How he would enjoy the simplest and smallest things and life. I loved every imperfection about him. He was perfect to me. In every way I can think of. It tears me apart we cant be together, but now we can. I left a letter on the table at home. Explaining how I can't live without him in my life. And now I'm going. I'm going to be with him once again.
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The guilt teared her apart, bit by bit. She seemed strong, but she's falling apart.
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