My thoughts and my struggles

this is not a story. I have spent years of my life struggling with suicidal thoughts, anxiety, self-harm, eating disorder-ish (idk what to call it), low self-a-steam, depression, etc. And i never figured out how to actually tell people what i feel or thinking because no one listens. You can read what you want but if you are easily triggered i recommend you don't. any way if you wanna see what goes on in my messed up brain you may read.

(idk if will post this if i do then... cool?)