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If only I could love you

somewhereyoullfindme

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Reads 64,084
Votes 2,726
Parts 20
Time 1h 40m

somewhereyoullfindme

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Prompt: “With Schools AUs it’s always Badboy!Phil with Nerd!Dan or Badboy!Dan with Nerd!Phil. That about a fic where both are bad, and meet behind the bike shed for a smoke, or both are nerds, and meet in the library.” (I went with both are bad)

Summary: Dan Howell is one of the most popular kids in school, with a badboy reputation to uphold. On the day that he meets the new boy, Phil Lester, who seems just as bad as himself, they become friends almost immediately. But as one thing leads to another, Dan isn't so sure if he and Phil are just friends, or more?

Overall warnings: swearing, mentions of drugs, smoking, drinking, strong homophobic slur, domestic abuse, mild smut, violence, emotional manipulationAll Rights Reserved

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