'FUCK ME HARD AGAINST HIS BED'

I Let It Happen - It is my fault
I just needed to let it out...

If someone does something that you didn't want and you still let it happen, is it your fault?
No
If they tell you that it is a secret and not to tell, does it mean that you have to keep it quiet?
No
Is the outcome your fault?
No

Don't blame yourself for what they did to you. You didn't ask for it or want it.
If they get punishment then they deserve it. If the punishment comes into your hands, then promise me you will do what you think is right. Do what YOU need to feel safe and not worry about what everyone else wants. If you get the decision then do what you want to do with it because it will be fate in your hands.

I know from experience that you will probably regret the decision down the line and that you probably will blame yourself. Heck, you might even regret telling...

My experience was not as bad as others but in no way does it make it any less painful and horrible and scary than any other.

I didn't deserve it however much i think I did, nobody deserves it. To feel violated and feel like you aren't your own person but everybody else's to touch.

I want to hear stories from people. I guess i thought publishing this as a way to get over it.

P. S. - Some of what happens was very blurred to me. I can't remember every detail because of others i felt got to me more or others that scarred my memories and a lot got pushed aside.
It was scary and I wish it on nobody.

Negative comments on this may probably be ignored so don't post them please. I don't want sympathy but understanding.

(Probably the first thing I publish)

Love you guys xxxx